Luca, Mitzi and Maya
During this time, I am a mother who is mothering herself. Out of a deep necessity to calm the fear, the anxiety, and to navigate the unknown, I have turned inward to soothe and comfort myself.
I have arranged my own zoom playdates to connect with dear friends and communities that feed my mind and soul. I have resourced myself with others to support me to grow and evolve from this special time in history.
And what I have found is that by doing this, I am softening the edge that I created mothering Luca & Maya. The edge was born to protect them - to not let them slack, to motivate them to stay on the right path. The edge came from fear. It blocked me from being in the moment with them. It muddied how I was interacting with them.
Mothering myself has helped my edge soften and I find myself more and more, being able to listen to their every word instead of planning my response while they are still talking. I have found myself able to laugh more with them. As the edge softens, the vast amount of love that I have for them is able to flow unconstrained.
When Luca and Maya remember this time, I hope they will remember it as a time when their mother tended to her heart and it made it soft and expansive enough to accept, trust and love them with less edge.
With love to all you mamas,